We have seen two different perspectives for the divine origin of this Universe. In the first one we saw how Pulastya requested Lord Bramha to reveal the story of the creation of Universe. From the great source, Mahatattva, created by the lord as the first source of energy, Satva (intelligence), Rajas (activity) and Tamas (darkness) came […]
Everything there is, it’s just a matter of one year now. This too shall pass on they say.
But, what if I don’t want this to pass on, what if I want to cling on to this moment right here, so bad that my fingers bleed. What if I don’t want to know what I’m going to know in a year.
Unawareness is a bliss. I want to be like this always, unaware, a dumbfuck. More than anything, a retard.
I am aware of the fact that time stops for no one. Used to write it in big bolds in my values class with a perfect border, “TIME AND TIDE WAITS FOR NONE.”I’m not special either. I’m just not ready to give up on this moment without making a memory with someone. A happy memory, a sad one, angry, disgusted, delighted, depressed, broken anything. All I need is something to remember this moment for. But what if people around me are not ready for that. What if they don’t want to make memories, not with me at least. Once I’m gone, I know they’ll understand, but I don’t want those stupid late realizations. What are they worth really now?
That’s why, I don’t want to go, don’t want to open my fingers and let this moment go. Not today, not ever.
There maybe something amazing waiting ahead of this moment, but I’m not ready for it yet. I know I’m going to love that amazing thing and I’ll be happy that I let go of this right here, but I don’t want to. It won’t be fair to this moment right here.
The greed in your eyes
The pheromones haul me inside
Where your touch does the magic
To step into the world
Of no end.
I know I am not the best daughter in the world, but you are still the best dad ever. I want to thank you for picking me up whenever I fell. For even when there was whole family, you were the only one who stood beside me. For all your activities were always centered around my goals and dreams. For always being able to see my dream and live it with me. For believing that I was right and the world was wrong.
I want to thank you for being the Santa not only on Christmas but everyday, whenever I demanded something.
I know I couldn’t be there for you the way you were for me every single time, but I promise to always be by your side.
I want to Thank you for all this and more. Because you’re the best dad in the world.
Happy Father’s day daddy. I love u.
After all those years of being a single mother and working 15 hours a day, she once sat there looking at the sun set, holding the note which told her the truth she never listened,
“Dear future me,
Please don’t go back to him. He doesn’t love you and will cheat on you again.
You can do better alone. Do not give up on your dreams cuz of him.”
She should never have given up on her dreams. He made her quit everything she loved, gave her a daughter to look after and left her alone. But she still had faith he will come back one day.
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This ofcourse is my first award nomination and I would like to thank Advita for this opportunity. Thank-you for believing in me.
11 facts about me:
1) My name is Bhumika.
2) I have a HUGE family.
3) I love travelling and reading.
4) One of my dreams is to live in London as a graduate of LSE. (Well too far for me I know but, they say wish for the stars and you will reach the moon atleast)🙄😛
5) I am a fan of detective and suspense novels. The stranger trilogy, Rushed and the last safe place are my particular favourites)
6) I am a techno freak.
7) I am a huge huge fan of FRIENDS series. I am in love with all the characters in there.
8) I am a person who doesn’t get engaged too easily but when I make u my friend, I will make sure you are happy always.
9) I am allergic to marriages. (Yeah, i have my own reasons🙄)
10) I am a kind of feminist, and hate stereotypes. So beware of falling into a debate with me on this topic.
11) And ofcourse I love debating.
Now here are the answers to Advita’s questions:
(Also this is the link to his amazing blog:
1) Do you believe in God?
A: No, I don’t specifically believe in God but my theory is that there’s something, a natural thing, that drives the universe or makes things happen. But I don’t think it’s appropriate to name it God.
2) One thing that you find most fascinating?
A: I am the most fascinated by the sky and stars. I can keep staring at them for hours.
3) What is your favourite colour?
A: My favourite colour is blue. The best reason is the sky and sea waves.
4) What is life according to you?
A: Life, according to me is a celebration of all the human emotions.
5)How would you define yourself in one word?
6)What do you feel can change this world?
A: Youth. There’s nothing so strong as young fresh minds of the world.
7) How do you define love?
A: For me loving someone is caring for them and the truest love is that of a mother and her child or a father and his daughter.
8) Which is your favourite book?
A: From all that I have read so far, the one that kept a hold on me till the end was “The last safe place”.
9) What is your favourite holiday destination?
A: I do not have a particular place in mind but it has to have a beach.
10) When do you get the most writing done? Day or night?
A: I mostly do it at night, because it’s calm and refreshing.
11) Which is your favorait quote?
A: ” I love to do things that people say I cannot do.”
Here are the rules for the Liebster Award, in case you don’t know what to do
(I didn’t know them myself)
1) Thank the blog who nominated you and link back to them.
2) Make a blog post telling 11 facts about you,
3) Answer the 11 questions from the blog who nominated you, and
4) Prepare 11 questions for those you will nominate.
5) Nominate 11 new bloggers (those who have less than 200 followers) by commenting in one of their blog posts.
Now here are the eleven questions for all those nominated by me:
1) What are the changes that you are expecting in the society in coming 20 years?
2) Define yourself in one word
3) Which is your favorait animal and why?
4) Why do you write?
5) What’s your worst nightmare?
6) What would you prefer, having your own child or adoption?
7) What is your inspiration?
8) State your life goal and your reason to choose it.
9) Which is your all time favourite book?
10) What is the most disgusting fact you have came across ever?
11) What are your views on gender equality in India?
Once again thank you so very much Advita for this nomination, also thank-you to my readers and followers and all those who accept my nominations.
Have you ever thought, what you are seeing now can be a dream and when you are dreaming can be reality.
Just imagine one morning waking up and opening your door and your house is flying like “UP”
Have you ever imagined, your mum, your dad, siblings and cousins and everyone that’s related to you, all of them are just paid actors. They are all acting and you are in a big prank TV show and someday they’re all gonna laugh at you and you would have to laugh with them.
Your best friend or sister you share your secreats with is just playing you. Your mum and dad. Yeah, I know this all’s nonsense but, there is a possibility.
Well, I know you’ve atleast imagined about aliens. What if these aliens were our masters and all these TV actors worked for these aliens. What then?
Imagine every book in this world that crosses your eye is just written to catch your attaintion. Even all the TV shows and movies.
Okay think about this, what is sky actully falls someday like in the rabbit story and it happens that aliens were jumping on the sky so it fell.
Well, what if this whole world was just in a tiny little flower. I remember seeing a movie in which this stuff was shown ( I don’t remember the name ). They said there was another world in a speck of flower and only an elephant could here them. What if there’s a world in every flower?
How many flowers have you plucked yet? What if an alien would pluck the flower named earth?
What if the sea animals lived on land and mammals lived in sea. Imagine the sea life. And one day a shark will come fishing for humans. ( well you can’t call it fishing then I guess, or maybe you can? ). Remember sponge Bob? What if any of that is true?
Imagine all the Disney cartoons to be true. Cinderella, snow white, little mermaid. What if there actully exists a Doraemon with anywhere doors and all those cool gadgets?
Sorry if I bored you but What if any of this is true?
My dad is engaged with social work. There’s a foundation called “Paramhans Swami Lilashah Foundation” which helps the poor and needy people for improving their standard of living. This foundation helps people in every way it can. It raises funds from the richer sections and passes on to the poor in the form they need. They provide children with books and school fees and also food grains to families every month.
So tonight, dad asked me to come with him to visit one of these people and give them money. Dad described them on the way.
This family had 7 members in all. A husband who recently was detected with throat cancer, a wife who was busy to keep the whole family together and meet ends, 4 daughters and a son.
The father woke up at 4:30 in the morning. Gets ready to catch the 6 AM local train to Rajkot and reaches there at 8:30. He has appointment with local doctors who offer free treatments under some Government schemes. The treatment is free but the transportation charges take almost 30% of their income.
So they had asked for Rs. 3000 from the foundation. When we went there today to give them the pay, the wife was not home. She took her daughter who was 19 to Ahmedabad. Recently the daughter suffered from a chronic elbow pain in one of her hands and couldn’t bear it. The doctors in this small town couldn’t detect what was wrong.
When we gave them the money, they thanked us and said that they were so much in need of that amount. It was the first time I had been in this work. I had a look around their house, the ceiling was falling apart and the the plasters were ripped off. I tried to talk to the youngest of daughters. She said she had just passed her 10th class with good grades and was willing to do something in science stream. This was something amazing.
I came home and I had to share this with everyone who has time to read this. All I know is that I am always complaining about stuff I don’t have to my dad and mom. But looking down at someone, makes me feel more vulnerable. I think everyone in this world deserves a healthy and happy life style.
Today I feel much more greatful for my belongings than I ever in my life have. I just pray for all the souls in need out there and hope to help them in my best possible ways.
Hope that you are back to your routine and working efficiently, as always.
You must wonder why I am writing this to you after 3 months of breaking up so badly. And on top of it, a letter, when I can mail or simply text you anytime. But I hope you will find your answers in this letter.
I just wanted to tell you that I lied to you and that this letter is an apology. An apology for telling all those harsh words. And I lied to you when I said that I didn’t love you anymore. You were the most amazing thing that ever happened to me.
I still remember 8th of March, you were in your red and black dress. I confessed my feelings and you said yes. And all three years that we have spent together. Your smile, it feels like heaven to see you smile every time. And I love to tease you. And you look so cute when you are angry, and also when you cry. Sometimes I don’t know whether to let you cry of stop you. And you know you are so short, and that’s so cute. Your eyes are the best part of your face. They can never hide anything from me. Not even the surprises you planned for me. But I hate them when they cry because every tear is so precious.
I never imagined I would get so lucky to have you in my life. Not to mention that you were my crush for a year till I finally confessed. All those moments I spent with you were the best ones of my life and I never ever wanted to dump you the way I did.
I just wanted to confess something before I go away.
Two days before I broke up with you, I came to know that I was on the final stage of my Lung Cancer. I know you always told me not to smoke. I tried my best. But I did smoke when you were not around. That is the second lie. I could not quit smoking even after all if your efforts and I know I failed you.
I did not want you to see me dying. I did not want to trouble you and above all I didn’t want to see your tears.
You will find this letter after my death. Please forgive me for all I have done wrong and please don’t hate me, that’s all I want.
P.S.- I love you and want you to be the happiest girl on this planet.